“With the new day comes new strength and new thoughts.” – Eleanor Roosevelt

Hey everyone. I felt like blogging so here I am. Summer is coming to a close. The big kids start school tomorow. Yeah, on a Friday. Odd, but maybe there is a reason for it.  Hannah is entering 7th grade and in Quincy that means Jr High. Demet is in 3rd and that is the last year of Elemtary school here. Arabella will be working on homeschool – preschool. We have been working on her ABC’s and counting along with colors but starting Monday we are gonna really work on it for a couple hours a day. I got back to Madison school in the lunch room tomorow. Pretty excited to get my days back in order and know what I am working everyday! Matt goes back to nights tomorow as well. I am gonna miss him at home in the evenings and going to bed with him.. but it’s what’s best for our family at this time.  I am also chairing a few events at Demet’s school this year and of course volunteering for as much as I can muster. I love being able to get involved with the school and the familes there.

Another thought that as been on my mind as of late is having another baby. Apparently God si telling me something.  I have always felt a pull very strongly toward having a baby each time after Hannah. I would have told you I wasn’t sure about another baby only 6 monthes ago and 3 monthes ago it would have been “maybe”.. now.. I am 99.5% sure that we will have another baby.  To some of you this will be a surprise.. to others you probably saw it coming.  Matt and I have talked about it and we will chose a time that will work for our family. Not quite yet.. but not too far away either. =)

I can’t believe Hannah will be 13 in October!! It is so weird. She has grown up alot over the summer and we will be taking a shopping trip for her birthday. =)

Anywho. I’m sure I’ll get the kick to write again at some point! Tata for now.


It’s a child not a choice

A worried woman went to her gynecologist and said:

‘Doctor, I have a serious problem and desperately need your help! My baby is not even 1 year old and I’m pregnant again. I don’t want kids so close together.

So the doctor said: ‘OK and what do you want me to do?’

She said: ‘I want you to end my pregnancy, and I’m counting on your help with this.’

The doctor thought for a little, and after some silence he said to the lady: ‘I think I have a better solution for your problem. It’s less dangerous for you too.’

She smiled, thinking that the doctor was going to accept her request.

Then he continued: ‘You see, in order for you not to have to take care 2 babies at the same time, let’s kill the one in your arms. This way, you could rest some before the other one is born. If we’re going to kill one of them, it doesn’t matter which one it is. There would be no risk for your body if you chose the one in your arms.

The lady was horrified and said: ‘No doctor! How terrible! It’s a crime to kill a child!

‘I agree’, the doctor replied. ‘But you seemed to be OK with it, so I thought maybe that was the best solution.’

The doctor smiled, realizing that he had made his point.

He convinced the mom that there is no difference in killing a child that’s already been born and one that’s still in the womb.

The crime is the same!

Don’t abort. Save a life.

“Love says I sacrifice myself for the good of the other person. Abortion says I sacrifice the other person for the good of myself…”

The end of the School Year…

Wow. It seems like the school year just started.  In just 4 monthes I will have kid in Jr high!  It just doesn’t seem possible that in 6 monthes from today I will have a teenager!! OMGosh! That totally freaks me out!! 

This summer is gonna be pretty low key. We are getting the pool passes once again. Matt and I are both gonna work day shifts and then head to the pool every day possible with the kiddo’s.  Bella may hate the bath but she LOVES the pool, just like my other kids. I am pretty excited to sit in the hot sun and soak up the rays! This year Bella will really enjoy it I think. Hannah will be watching the kids while we work. This seems so weird, but she is closing in on 13 and she took her babysitting class this last weekend so she now knows CPR and all that jazz. Plus, since I am less than a mile from home.. it makes me feel better.  

There is gonna be ALOT of grilling in the summer. Hotdogs, Hamburger, Steaks, Chicken… Kabobs. =) Yummy. And bonus, my kitchen won’t get sooo hot.  Our kitchen is smaller and since it is so small it holds that heat from the oven and kills us with it for the rest of the night.

We have a couple trips planned this summer. 1st for Arabella’s birthday.. a trip to the zoo. I am soo excited about this.  Then at the end of  July the kids & I are going over to see some family in Kirksville for a long family reunion weekend. Then the day after we return home.. Matt, the Kids and I are heading out for our family trip. I would share info about this… but I haven’t gotten much out of Matt about what’s happening. =)    Demet has Basketball camp the first full week in June and His birthday is the end of May! My Baby Boy will be 8!!! He is having a “friend” party at Aladdins Castle. We are ever so excited about that!!!

As for an update about how we’re all doing….. I enjoy the new job at the school, but I hate doing the dishes there.. lol  Most the kids at the school are sweet. I am learning to work with my new paycheck .. =) I do miss working all day at Panera.. Some days.. but in just a few weeks I will be working 40 hours a week there. Pretty excited for those paychecks! hhehehe.  The kids are doing AWESOME in school. Hannah is on the Honor Roll. All A’s with 1 B. Demet has all high marks too.  I think they are ready for summer though.  Matt is ready for summer too. We all love being able to spend time together and this will be the first time since I had Bella that I will have Summer nights off and be home with the whole family!!

I am tired.  Bella is rolling her marshmellows into the carpet. and I need to get the kids in bed.  Sooo Goodnight and your welcome! ❤

What makes a daddy?

I am so very frustrated with Hannah’s dad!  Her nana passed away on Wedesday. She had cancer but Hannah said before Christmas when she saw her last she didn’t really look sick and hadn’t lost all the weight she lost (She was down to 110) .. I have to vent a bit about this cuz I know that it will make me feel better. .. Nana was sick. But she was more sick than she let anyone know. I do not agree with keeping sickness from your family and close friends who could be praying for a healing… but apparently she had her reasons. None the less, Nana was sick and in the hospital the last time Hannah went to her dad’s. Instead of going to see Nana, they went to do some other stuff .. “cuz the hospital was across town from where they were at.”  Issue number one – If a family member is super sick, please go see them and let the grandchildren see them to say a possible good-bye.  Don’t tell Hannah after I am 10 mins late picking her up that if they would have known I was gonna be late that they would have gone to see her.. It should have been a top priority! Then last week out of the blue he calls Hannah and says that Nana is home from the hospital.. Hannah thinks she is getting better… then he tells her she needs to talk to Nana on the phone cuz they don’t know when/if she’ll see her again. ( By this time nana can’t hardly talk on the phone so hannah is talking to nana and her dad is telling hannah what she is saying.) She tells her she loves her and a couple other things then they get off the phone. I text to ask what the crap is going on for sure cuz Hannah doesn’t really understand. I hardly get more than 1 or 2 word answers.  Issue number two – I know I am not your wife or a family member.. but I am the mother of your daughter and I need to know exactly what is happening so I can help her to understand. I don’t care if your busy or if you don’t think it’s any of my business. I then called him the next day to talk and find out details cuz his texts sucked.. I learned that all her kids were home and she wasn’t doing well. But the day before had seemed a bit better and I know knew what was killing her and why nothing had been done to help her. ( Cancer had spread throughout her whole body and she didn’t tell family till it was too late) .. Told him to keep me updated.. Then on Wedesday I get a phone call (about 10am) telling me that she had died and that he would be calling to talk to Hannah after she got out of school around 4pm. I asked a couple questions and he told me he would get the details about burial and stuff as soon as he knew. And then I asked about Hannah going this weekend to be with them.. His reply.. “I don’t know”… Issue number three – It’s her family too! She has every right to be with you and grieve and cry.. to say good-bye! I don’t care how little she saw her.. it was her grandmother for heavens sake!!! So that afternoon when Hannah got home I told her the news.. She was in shock.. upset.. but mostly shock. I told her that her dad would be calling her and she said ok. She wanted details and info. .. She waited. And waited. and waited. He called her phone while I was gone to Bball practice.. (around 6:30pm) .. she can’t use her phone for calls till after 7pm so she called him after that. .. I think they were only on the phone for 5 mintues. I’m sure he was busy…. Issue number four – Hannah lost someone too. She should have the choice to talk to you and feel like she isn’t wasting your time!! (this is just my impression of the whole thing)  … ok. .. moving on. Long story short. I let him know that if he wanted to get Hannah this weekend.. I could get her to him.. (No .. he can’t. No money to get gas in his car) .. Visitation was last night… we found out AFTER the fact. Both Hannah and I tried to get ahold of him  all evening and he finally called back around 8:30pm. Nana is being buried near Chicago by her own parents. .. So I told him that she could go on Monday with them.. He is going to work and not going..Issue number five- YOU got Closure .. you got to see her ..say good-bye.. all My daughter keeps saying is .. “it just doesn’t seem real.”…. Thanks. Thanks for helping her through the first real loss she has ever had!! I don’t understand why you thought keeping her from this was a good idea. You have NO Idea how hard it is to loss someone and then keep forgetting they are gone and having to relive the pain everytime you remember! You need to say good-bye. You need it to move on.  Thanks so much for being a rock for her to stand on.. I thank God she has a real dad her that care enough to help her through the hurt even if he doesn’t understand it!  It makes me sad to think that she needs to talk about it with you and you don’t want to listen long enough for her to release her sorrow.

This is just my views about the last week. I am sure I am a little biased to where my Children are concerned. I know Chris loved Hannah.. it’s just he isn’t a … and I quote.. “A family guy”.. I don’t care if you are or not.. She still needs you to be a dad.

The End!

Updates are not as easy as they appear.

I read alot of blogs.. it’s almost like ready a book about someones life sometimes.. sometimes it’s just funny and a nice way to unwind. I have read a few blogs over the years and have kept up with a couple for a long time. I feel like I know them.. their familes… their stories. I wish that I could write like that. I wanted to update my blog. Let everyone know what’s new. It’s really hard to write a blog about nothing. And let’s be honest, NO one wants to read a blog about nothing.  My life is pretty simple, I think this is a good thing. It’s almost drama free. Just regular kid stuff. Pre-teen attitudes, sibling fights.. ect.  But I want to be able to write a blog about stuff people will be excited to read.. and go back a look at. Well, maybe not.. cuz then I would have to write a blog everyday.  =)  My best friend can write a blog that makes me laugh and enjoy reading everytime she updates. Oh well.. On to the real update.

Our house has been pretty quiet since Christmas. Matt is starting Arabella’s bedroom. We har hoping to have her in her room (crib & all) by the time she is 2! Which is ONLY 4 monthes away! Can you believe it!?!?! She is such a smart little girl. We have been working on potty training. She does really well when you sit her down.. but she doesn’t pull her pants down or try on her own at all.  We practice looking at pictures of family with her so she can learn everyone’s names. She just got over her sinus infection. Hopfully she stay’s healthy for the rest of the season. She will be starting swimming lessons soon too.  Demet is growing so fast. He is 7 1/2 and wears a size 14/16 in undershirts, 10 in jeans, 10-12 in shirts, and size 5 in shoes!! He is doing really good in school and is super smart like his daddy. He is starting a little bit of the smarty pants stuff.. but hates to be in trouble so I can still make him feel guilty. (YAY)  He has alot of friends and enjoys hanging out with them. Hannah is doing good in school also. Although, Hannah could be doing better than she is. She has a hard time staying focused in school and so her mid-term grades went lower than I would like to see.  She is becoming a young lady before our eyes. About once a month I can really see a light at the end of the Pre-teen tunnel. =) Matt and I will be married for 9 years next month! We look like we always have. We wear the same sizes. I am taking a pilates class in hopes of tonning my “baby” belly.

Well.. I am sorta tired of writting.. and Bella is trying to turn off the laptop since I won’t give her her “Chuuu”.. (Aka binky) She gets down right mad about it. lol Anywho. Time to make the chili. Toodles


Here are some random things about me.

I hate things to be out of their place. I dislike clutter. I need everything in it’s place (or my place for it)

I love reading. I enjoy romance novels or biographies about someone I would like to know about.

I can not stand whinny kids. I know when your tired you whine. I do too.. but there are just some kids that Whine about EVERYTHING!!! It’s not ok to whine about the fact that your hungry, Just say it. It’s not ok to whine about having to brush your teeth.. just do it! Ugh.

I get very annoyed with parents who let their kids talk smack to them. It is OUR JOBS as parents to teach our children how to act in this life.. If we let them talk to us this way how will they treat a teacher/pastor/friend/stranger??

I LOVE spending time with my family. Nothing better than a family game night.

I LOVE sleep. I have always needed alot of sleep. Ask my mom. I slept through the night when I came home from the hospital. I can NOT take naps though. They make me feel like poo. Neigher can my grandma.. unless we are sick.

I believe that “I don’t know” is NOT an answer! ugh

I get very grumpy about bedtime and can’t stand any major noise.

I have had the same best friend since I was about 12ish. =)

I met My husband, Matt, online in an AOL chat room in 2002

I won’t say if I am done having kids cuz the thought makes me sad. But I don’t want another baby anytime soon at all.

I am not a morning person.. and yet I go to work at 5:30AM! yuck!!

I am tired.. So I am going to tuck the kids in bed and go there myself. MUAH

New Job

Here are some things I love about my New job

1. No Stress

2. I leave Panera early

3. Kids

4. All the ladies I work with are funny and sweet

5. Easy!!!

6. I get home from work by 1:22

7. I know how many kids are coming to eat lunch EVERY shift.

8. Everything is in Order and they like lists!!

9. I get to wear jeans and tennis shoes

10. I don’t smell when I get home.

11. I get to move around and do different things.

12. I see Molly Stroot at work!!

13. Salad bar and lunch for free. ❤

…. and I am sure as I work there more I will find more things I love!

what do I not Love about my new job??

1. The sink is too low. ;-p

As you can tell, I had a good first day at the new job. It is alot of fun. I like it alot.

Peace Out.

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